Monday, March 12, 2007
out of no where,feeling heavy and sad in my heart again
i told myself not to.
but it seems i cannot..
on music,and i felt better.
i was so not in the mood to study in the morning.
and so did not study.
was so angry with myself.
just dun understand what i am doing sometimes.
could felt the stress in me
but i could do nothing
but jus gobbling up foods to make me feel better.
at this rate,i am going to gain more weight already.
which i dun wish to do that?
can someone tel me how do i handle stress?
i dun felt motivated as like last week anymore.
dun have the drive in me to call me to study
i'm just so disappointed in myself.
but what could i do?
just sitting there helplessly
i need to be leave alone for a while.
i need to calm myself down during the holidays
though i may not be studying during the holidays.
but at least i will do a lot of thinkings during the holidays and allow me to start refresh.
i wanted a new me,a happy and joyful me when the term starts again.
this is what i had promised HER too as i love myself.
i won't let her down anymore.
she is just my special friend.
always there for me no matter what happens
i must not TRY but i must BELIEVE in myself.
i wanted to BELIEVE in myself again!
so i have to get rid of all the disbeliefs in me!
i told myself not to.
but it seems i cannot..
on music,and i felt better.
i was so not in the mood to study in the morning.
and so did not study.
was so angry with myself.
just dun understand what i am doing sometimes.
could felt the stress in me
but i could do nothing
but jus gobbling up foods to make me feel better.
at this rate,i am going to gain more weight already.
which i dun wish to do that?
can someone tel me how do i handle stress?
i dun felt motivated as like last week anymore.
dun have the drive in me to call me to study
i'm just so disappointed in myself.
but what could i do?
just sitting there helplessly
i need to be leave alone for a while.
i need to calm myself down during the holidays
though i may not be studying during the holidays.
but at least i will do a lot of thinkings during the holidays and allow me to start refresh.
i wanted a new me,a happy and joyful me when the term starts again.
this is what i had promised HER too as i love myself.
i won't let her down anymore.
she is just my special friend.
always there for me no matter what happens
i must not TRY but i must BELIEVE in myself.
i wanted to BELIEVE in myself again!
so i have to get rid of all the disbeliefs in me!
ii m living a simple life.
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